murni

td ym dgn siti irma rosli aka irmo, melur, gummy, atuk.... hahaha... mula2 cite biasa2 je.. pastu irma ajak lepak... aku pon dah mendap gila duk umah.. so aku tanye mak aku aku nk kua lepak jap... setelah disoal siasat dan mintak sedikit dana, maka aku pon berangkatlah ke rumah irma utk mengutipnya... pastu dah kutip xtaw nk lepak mane. sume kuar. hartamas, bangsar, pj, wangsa maju... last2 kitorg lepak kat murni ss2. ramai gila org. nasib ade sit. aku order mozarella cheese nan dgn air I LOVE YOU. haaa. jgn tak caye. kat situ ade air mcm2. i love you, i miss you, pink panther n tah ape tah lagi CHA tu ckp. aku tanye dia xde menu ke. senang skit nk tgk ape yg best. dia kate xde. so aku pon redha. aku order la I LOVE YOU. CHA yg busuk gila babi tu bleh plak dia bantai 'I LOVE YOU TOO'!! pundek dia!! hahahahah... irma order pink panther n carbonara chicken chop. adik aku order carbonara jugak dgn air I MISS YOU. hahaha. comel gila. air I LOVE YOU tu mcm air grape pastu ade buah longan n lemon. sedap jugak. pastu serve dlm balang. bkn la balang kuih tp mcm balang prego tu. jar. adik punye air yg I MISS YOU tu mcm tropical breeze kat Manhattan Fish Market nye. mcm sprite campur tropical nye cordial pastu ade longan, nata de coco n lemon jugak. irma nye air tu xsure la plak. mcm fruit punch pon ade. irma kate rasa pisang n nenas. SUMEEEE sedappppppp!!! nyummm nyummm. tp aku n adik mkn tak hbs. so kitorg bungkus. portion dia mmg utk 2 org mkn. so, worth it la dgn harga dia. irma bantai order fries pulokkkk. aku tgk adik aku yg bantai hbs kan. bgs dik! thumbs up! kau mmg MAJLIS PERBANDARAN KAJANG sungguh! hahahahhaha...pastu irma leh bantai, muka CHA tu mcm NAIM cha! hahaha.. aku tgk skali pon ade gak laaa. hahaha... igt kan naim yg part time tp takk!! wakakakak. irma hang mmg bongok!! pastu hari ni kan birthday bella!! igt nak ajak bella lepak skali. leh celebrate. tp bella baru blk dr klia amik abg J! hahahahah... takpe, kat muadzam kita celebrate ok ipin!! opah cyg ipin n rindu ipin sgt2!!! =(

i'm hoping that u will read this....

trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met...

true love never dies as we see in our eyes, only when we let go that... we can truly say goodbye..

real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself

how can i forget you when you're always in my mind?

how can i not want you when your are all i want inside?

how can i let you go when i can't see us apart?

how can i not love love you when you control my heart?

a lost love is never lost unless what's lost is the love for your lover

without you there is no love

without you there is no me

without you there is nothing

so, i'm asking, ' Baby, please don't leave'

i cry because i know he doesn't feel the way i do

i cry because i think of how pathetic i am

i cry because i think i'll be crying forever

some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you

and you know you can't have the,

but it's worse when you thought you didn't want them anymore

and all of a sudden you realize you can't live without them

a heart breaking is not always as a loud as bomb exploding

sometimes it can be as quite as feather falling

and the most painful thing is no one really hears it, except you

how can i promise you forever when tomorrow is so far away from me?

how can i dry your tears when i have bleeding heart inside of me?

how can i ever forget you when your name is etched so deep within me?

maybe if i had just looked away the first day i saw you and everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now

i wish that you were here or i were there or that we were together anywhere

the saddest love is to love someone

to know that they still want you

but the circumstances don't let you to have them

a million words wouldn't bring you back

i know because i've tried

neither would a million tears

i know because i've tried!!!

it's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when you're heart still does

it is now one of my biggest regrets in this life, not to have seen the extent of your love for me

sometimes i wish i had never met you

because then i could go to bed at night without knowing there was someone like you out there

every single person in this world waits for love in their life

some people say love didn't come to them but it was right in front in their eyes

some people wait a lifetime for true love

i should know, i'm still waiting for my true love

our sweetest songs are those that tell of the saddest thoughts

the worst thing a guy can do is let a girl fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall

love is born with a smile, grows with a kiss and dies with a tear.....................

p/s: i will always love you................

the touching part is when..............

Sometimes goodbye is a painful way
to say I love you.

If someone you love breaks your heart,
cry a river,
build a bridge,
and get over it.

It's like my mind knows what's right
but my heart is being retarded and still cares

May you know the peace
and comfort this heartfelt thought imparts;
the ones we love are never gone,
for they live within our hearts.

Life without you is like a broken pencil,
there is no point.

Because I never really had you at all,
I didn't think it would hurt this much to lose you

And now, all that I ever held dear is just a memory.

How can I love again when
I can't stop loving the one that hurt me so much?

A broken heart is a heart that has felt love.

If tears could build a stairway on memories alone,
I'd walk right up to Heaven
and bring you home again.

Ask me how many times
my heart has been broken
and I will tell you to look in the sky
and count the stars.

aku

aku seorang yg sombong. ye! itu yg org slalu kata bila tak pernah kenal aku. tp aku pon rasa aku sombong sbb aku tak reti nak senyum dgn org yg aku x kenal. nnt org kata aku bajet comel cantik n haram jadah sume! aku seorang yg suka gelak. gelak bila ade lawak yg berkualiti shj. kalau gelak saje nak amik hati baik tak payah! buat penat je! aku juga seorg yg sgt pemarah. aku akan jd marah bila ade kerja yg aku mintak tolong, tp buat dgn muka mcm pantat ayam, nak bising2 pdhal dia taw tu keje dia, org yg tak paham bahasa. org yg bajet comel padahal tak comel langsung pon aku menyampah! lg2, org yg suka kata 'aku kan comel'! ITU PALING AKU BENCI!! sbb org yg comel tidak akan menyatakan dirinya comel dan begitu lah sebaliknya. so kalau taknak aku benci kau, jgn lah kata kau comel dpn aku ye? mmg tak la aku nak layan kau. lepas tu, org yg comel dan teruja nak tunjuk kecomelan dia dpn mamat2 hot, hensem, comel n segala2 nya. kau jgn igt aku ckp mcm ni sbb aku DENGKI, tapi sebenarnya tidak! bg aku org yg suke tunjuk comel ni mcm menunjuk2 nikmat yg Allah bagi. tu semua temporary je. so, silalah jaga dan anda tidak seharusnya BONGKAK dgn ape yg anda ada. hurmmm.. ape lg psl aku ye? jap nak buat ayat bagus sikit. haaa. aku PALING TAK SUKA MEMASAK! tp aku prefer kepada MENGEMAS! bg aku bukan semua org pandai mengemas. setakat sapu sampah pastu sampah tu biar je depan rumah, mop lantai tp lantai still melekit, kemas blk tp serupa tak payah kemas, aku tak heran. tak payah tunjuk rajin tuk amik hati pon takpe sbb itu semua TIDAK PERLU! bg aku mengemas tu ade art nye sendiri. up to org yg mengemas nye. aku bukan nk BANGGA yg aku ni pandai mengemas tp aku suke keadaan yg kemas dan tak semak! bg aku segala behavior seseorg tu terbawak2 smpai ke tua bangka adalah disbbkan gen mak bapak dia sniri. mst kat rumah dia mcm tu. sbb bg aku segalanya bermula kat rmh. akhlak baik ke x, kuang aja ke x, sume start dari rmh. so aku assume sape yg kurang ajar tu mmg kesian kat dia sbb myb mak bapak dia takde masa utk dia. sumpah aku kesian! pastu aku seorg yg suka berkata2. ye! aku mengaku! sape yg tak suke mengata? bg taw aku skrg. itu normal lah people! kalau kau tak puas hati dgn kwn kau, ade tak kau g sound dia direct? tak kan? mst kau kata2 dia dulu, kau kumpul points sblum kau BOMB dia kaw kaw. am i rite?? bg aku SEMUA org hipokrit! sbb kalau tak hipokrit cite betol xkan terbongkar! betol kan?? betol kan aje. aku juga BENCI dgn org yg kononya konservatif tp hakikatnya dia much much worst for God sake! kau tak payah tunjuk yg kau conservative sbb ade org yg taw yg kau tu mcm mane sebenarnya. myb lagi teruk. who knows?? aku mmg luaran nampak baik, lembut tapi itu semua akan lenyap mcm tu je bila ada org buat sial kat aku. aku mengaku yg i'm not a good listener tp aku akan dgr jugak if ada org nak cite. kalau kau percaya aku, kau cite. kalau kau doubt, kau g cari org lain. sbb nnt kau kata aku mulut gampang bwk cite. fhm disitu? sabar aku ada batas. mcm sume org kata. cliche! ade penah aku baling penyapu dari ats ke bwh rmh aku sbb terlampau bengang. nasib takde pape yg pecah disitu. kalau ade pon, so what? boleh beli lain. pintu tak payah kata. pernah bpk aku seret aku g pintu yg aku jahanamkan. ada aku repair? takde pon. aku penah baling basikal, baling ampaian sbb aku marah. aku tak igt sbb ape tp mmg aku mrh time tu. ye. aku mmg baling ampaian dan basikal. knape? tak caye sudah. ade aku kesah? lantak kau. gi mampos. seterusnya, aku lebih rela berkwn dgn mereka yg mulut gampang atau perangai mcm sial sbb aku percaya mereka tidak hipokrit. itu diri mereka sebenar. dari yg pakai tudung, muka suci, tp comolot peluk raba2 sume tu tak salah ke? haaa. kau fikir sniri sblom kau nak kata aku ni kuang aja ke ape ye? harap maaf disitu. kalau ada sesiapa yg terasa, mintak sorry. tp kalau difikirkan blk, surrounding kau mmg mcm ni. tak caye? kau tgk kwn2 kau sniri skrg. kau igt dorg baik sgt? takde maknenye. myb dorg lagi terok dr kau. betol x? kau pon bleh compare yg kau ni sbnrnye baik dari kwn2 kau. itu mmg aku tak tipu sbb aku ade kwn2 jenis mcm ni. so, aku tak kesah. lantak kau. selagi kau tak kacau hidop aku, aku pon tak hingin nak kacau hidop kau! lepas tu, aku mmg seorg yg kedekot. sgt! bkn ape, dari aku darjah 5 aku da belajar hidup sendiri. sume benda aku buat sendiri. tp duit skolah parents aku support laa. yg lain aku buat sendiri. so harta yg aku ada mmg aku JE yg punya. aku mmg tak suka share. knape nak share? asal? kau dah takde duit sgt ke nak beli sendiri? ok fine. aku pernah pinjam harta org jugak. tp itu sbb aku terdesak. kalau x, aku taknak pinjam pon sbb aku taknak terhutang budi dekat org. kita tak knl sgt org tuh so kita tak taw ape dia boleh buat kat kita. kan?? aku juga seorang kakak yg KADANG KALA saje penyayang, caring dan baik. sbb attitude aku mmg mcm tu. harta aku, aku punye. hahaha. itu adik bradik yg lain pon mcm tu kann?? tp cara aku ckp dgn adik beradik aku mmg kasar. tak caye sudah! gi mampos. dan aku tak suke SHARE sume cite kat org. ini mmg berlaku sampai skrg. ade benda aku smpan sniri. kdg2 aku rasa kwn2 aku patot taw, tp tak payah taw pon xpe. hoho. mintak sorry skali lagi disitu kpd mereka yg bergelar rakan2 dan yg menganggap aku ni kwn mereka! kalau taknak kwn dgn aku pon xpe. aku pon x hadap sgt nak kwn dgn kau! kalau bab2 laki kan ni mmg aku akan excited! hahahah... mmg laa. kate girl. girls like boys kan?? aku straight meret. bkn lesbo. laki yg aku suke tgk adalah kebanyakan yg aku usha, kebanyakan nye yg cerah. bkn aku tak suka yg hitam2, tp bila mata dah nmpk, mst cerahnye that guy. pastu rambut dia ala2 bileh selak2 gitu. mcm ade fringe sikit, selekeh skit. selekeh itu smart. aku tak brape nak gemar dgn laki yg kaki menyemart. tshirt nak tuck in slalu, pakai kasut slalu. bg aku laki yg cool adelah rambut yg ade fringe, tshirt, shorts or jeans, sliper/sneakers tu tgk ocassion jugak laaa. kalau stakat nk lepak2, sliper sudah. itu yg membuat kan anda sexy yawww!! so these types of guys, u guys better watch out sbb myb anda mangsa seterusnya aku nak usha!! hahahaha... tp slalu guys yg aku usha, org lain pon suke jugak. adakah mereka mempunyai taste yg same mcm aku?? ahh tidakkkkkkk!!! so, 'KELEMAHAN' aku adalah, biarlah dia. kalau dpt kat dia, aku redha. tula aku. tak habis2 REDHA! sbb tu kot single mingle sampai skrg. tp thats not the matter. if one day i were destined to be with not-my-type-of-guy-at-all, i will accept it sincerely because i knw it is already fated. Allah knows the best for His slave..

p/s: post ni aku tak tujukan kat sape2. tp kalau ade yg terasa tuh, mintak sorry byk2. takde niat nk bg sape2 terasa. ni luahan aku. sbb time ni mmg aku tgh bengang gila babi punye terhadap segelintir makhluk2 Allah di muka bumi ini. identiti terpaksa dirahsiakan. skali lg mntk sorry! ( lg 1 kelemahan aku senang sgt nak mntk sorry dekat org ) and kalau ade typos mane2 sila abaikan.

pisau cukur!! woott woottt!!

the next day after watched the 2012, aku kua lg. kali ni lepak pavilion plak. lupa plak nak mention. yg 2012 tu tgk kat mid.( nk jugak bitaw kan ) ahh!! sukati ar. blog aku. kau ape kesah?? huhu.... grk dr rumah dgn irma, tp irma turun serdang. aku pon teruskan perjalanan ke kl central nak meet up dgn syg2 ku banti n wani. tp cakira takdok. tgh finals!! hahaha.. ape la babe. kitorg dah habes dahhh!! hahahha... jahat gila!!

dah smpai pavi tu gi beli ticket dulu. kitorg beli yg pkl 210 nye. smpai pon da 12 lebeh kot. pastu g lunch kat food court. aku mkn mun yee mee!! masa g mid pon mkn sizzling chicken mushroom yee mee. hari ni pon yee mee gak. takpelahhh. xtaw nk mkn ape dah. pdhal byk je choices. huhu.. xpe2 next time mkn lain ok?? =) yg si wani plak duk kabut nk mkn mcm cina sblah tu. nak taw x cina tu mkn ape? cakoi dgn bubur nasi! cakoi cicah dgn bubur nasi! aku pon tak penah mkn mcm tu. cakoi n bubur nasi ye la slalu mkn tp x pernah makan cakoi yg deep ( camni eh eja? ) in bubur nasi!! hayyooo... pon boleyyy la!! dah la si wani cari tu je 3 kali tak jumpa2. last2 ada resit cina tu beli kat mana so dia kata 'ha you taou kat ne' aku ckp la g la cari. area dpn ke. kejap je lepas nmpk name kedai kat resit tu, wani jumpa gak cakoi n bubur nasi dia tuh

haaa tiup lah kau wani!! hahaha...

pas mkn g surau jap. pastu baru la tgk movie. takde org!! ada la dlm 10 org je.. happy gila!! da la seat best. rugi x baring2 je kat couple seat td.takde orggg!! huhu... pisau cukur ni psl pompuan yg suke nak kikis datuk2 n tan sri2. vvvvvip lah kata kannn. tp yg taaaa boleehhhhh belaaaahhhhh!! an ade dlm tu!! patot la sombong dgn aku skrg kan annn!! kau artis kan skrg!! extra pon extra laaa. bkn stakat skali dia ada, bekali2 gak ar aku nmpk kau. kate hemmmsemmmm!!! huhu....

oh my dior ( more to oh my dear )

oh my gucci ( more to oh my God )

oh my prada, oh my louis vuitton

gedik gilaaaa!! hayaaaaa!! hahahah... tp best2! 'bella', 'intan' n 'faqir' anda semua bloody hottt ok!! sgttt!! huhu... 4 n half stars la utk movie ni! hahahha

lepas movie g mane eh?? jap lupa laa... haaa! nk g beli cupcake chic! tp taknak beli dah sbb taktaw la myb kitorg kenyang ke ape kan... muak!!! hakkktuuuihhhhh!! dah la x cute sgt.... kitorg beli chocofee n tiramisu... ( tak leh add image pulak. tp kalau nk tgk cupcakes tu, kat fb ada.. SEDIH HATI SAYA! ) ayt 'kakak bella'!! hahahaha...

dah beli cupcakes snap pictasss la pulakkkkk!!! itu wajib!! tp pavi dah didecorate utk xmas! pdhal lmbt lg.. tp sumpah cantik decorations dia... x caya g ar tgk sniri... hoho....

after movie!

this actually happened before we went for the movie. we were having our lunch at the food court. bella kata dia nmpk et n abg jun da sampai. dia g jumpa dorg sbb nak bg ticket. pastu bdk2 ni suruh bella ckp kat abg jun dia dtg la sini nak jumpa.... adesss... bila abg jun da dekat meja kitorg, sekor2 muka tak boleyyy belahhh!! excited nak mampos!! lg si sapinah, shila n irma! sampai nak stop mkn sbb excited punye psl tgk abg jun!! actually kak et n abg jun mmg sweet! x nmpk mcm org da kawin pon. mcm a korean chic and a chinese guy tgh dating nak tgk movie. mmg la dorg dating tp dorang ni x nmpk mcm married couple!! yeaaa!! that's the word that i was trying to say dr td!! huuu... after lunch plak dorg gatai mntk abg jun belanja ice cream.... sapinah kata 'ice cream sinngit pon xpe'.... hahahahha.... abg jun pon dgn sporting nye blanje la kitorg 6 org ni ice creammm... malu pon ye gakkk... haishhh... hampa ni laaa... pastu nak amik gmbr pulakkk!! dgn abg jun je plak tuhhh!!! kak et sampai kata ' nak amik bwk blk rumah pon xpe' how sporting was she!! hahahahah... jgn risau kak et... kitorg will not n never steal abg J ( bak kata shila ) from u!! =)

mula2 kak et yg nk tlg snap kan pict, tp bella take over.. ok lg kak et msk jugak dlm gmbr, tp dia bkn suk sblah abg J! again, he was in the middle of shila n sapinah!! adoyaiii. kak et plak duduk elok je hujung skali sblah fara bella... kak et, sbr eh... dorg ni mmg.... kalau dtg time gatal tu, sume xleh control dahhh.. laki org pon bolehhh!! tp u guys sporting sgtttt!! thanks a heap!! =))

haaa!! ni pon before nak tgk movie jugak. me and fara bella nak naik ats la kan sbb kitorg br mkn dekat delifrance. tgh2 jln tu tiba2 ada la sorg guy ni he was carrying stroller... dr blkg pon kite taw dia mmg hot... aku pon boleh bantai ckp kat fara ' dia nk mst hot papa kan?' mmg hottttt ponn!! nak taw x sape?? dr fazley yaakob ok!! haambekkkk!! hemmmsemmmm tol!! ada la sekumpulan bdk pompuan yg x abes skolah lg kot, duk sengih2 je bila nmpk fazley ni. rasenye dorg keja kot fazley. nak amik gmbr lah tuuu... hahahhaha.... teruja jap jumpa hot papa yg veryyyy the hooottttttttt!!! hahahah...

lepas tgk movie yg buat bontot aku lebam sbb duk dlm tu almost 2hrs n 40 minute, tu x campur iklan mula2... iklan tm tu nak tayang 10 kali je kannn... smpai ngntuk2 aku... huhu.... we decided nak lepak2 mapleyyy... igt nak lepak pelita bangsar je mula2 sbb me n irma rushing nnt nak naik train... tp sapinah ajak g murni... murni is in sec 2!! selama2 aku duk pj n lepak2 area sec 2 tu, xtaw la pulak ada murni tu... dgn sesat sampai msk area kl nye x kira lg kannn!!! hahaha... kate je duk kl, jln kat kl pon tada taw!! manyak masalah wo. actually kitorg dr kl central nak g federal je, tp cm, area pudu sume kitorg hentam! dgn jam nye!! hambekkkk!!! hahahha.... smlm bila sampai area situ baru la mcm 'la, sini ke murni nye...' haa.. situ lah kannn.. hahahha... mula2 pusing2 cari murni... 3 4 kali pusing gak arr... dgn confident level yg tinggi, kitorg igt murni tutup... rupanya salah tmpt.... area blkg kfc rupanye... tu pon sapinah g tanye org... hahaha... mula2 pusing, penoh je... 2 kali pusing pon penoh... org penuh, parking penoh... da la mcm rintik2 je time tu.... pastu last2 kitorg give up, aku bella n iena ckp kat dorg ( sapinah, irma n shila ) yg kitorg nak lepak pelita je.. yg dorg ni pulak... 'alaaa.. lepak la sini. ada parking laaa' time dorg ckp tu kitorg da siap sedia da kat pelita tuh... so, terpisah la kejap... 3 org g pelita lg 3 g murni... takpe2. next time 13 org g murni eh?? hahahha...

pastu kat pelita tu plak anneyyyy tu bangang nak mampos! kitorg order 2 maggi goreng 1 mee goreng mamak. yg si keling ni dgr 2 mee 1 maggi. tu ok lg. masa mula2 dia hntr mee tu, kan ada 2. dia letak kat tmpt aku. aku ckp la maggi yg 2, mee 1. dia pon mcm ok la. pastu dia tnye aku. nak yg ni ( yg dia da letak dpn aku ) or yg dia tgh pegang. yg dia da letak tu kurg pedas. yg dia still pegang tu pedas. aku tunjuk la yg aku nk yg kurg pedas tu sbb aku mls nak mkn keling nye pedas. nnt skt prot. dah la aku digest cpt. nnt nak g berak laaa tgh dlm train. kang susah nak cari jamban. pastu nak dijadikan cite, aku tunjuk la yg aku nak yg dpn aku nye mee. ada saksi ok! si bella n iena. boleh pulak anneyy tu 'mari2'. dia hambekkkk yg dia da letak dpn aku n bg aku yg pds!! aku pon , hurmmm.. lantak lah kau keling... kate keling kannn?? mcm tu arrr... bdk 2 ekor tu da bantai gelak2 dahhh... ye ar, mane taknye... aku da siap tunjuk 'sy nak yg ni ( yg dia da letak dpn aku )' anneyyy tu bantai amek ganti dgn yg pds tu... sumpah redho gila time tu!! bodoh nye anneeyyy!! tu aku ckp kat iena, mmg spesies dia ponn!!! hahahahha... iena jgn mara ye.... hahahah... tp sumpah lwk!!

pastu masa nk blk, aku n irma turun kat lrt kelana jaya. dah la train lmbt! train smpai dlm 1040. nk keja ktm lg! adesss. aku dah dup dap dup dap dahh. ade ke x ktm nnt. kalau xde, nak call sape. irma kate, 'kalau kite surrender, kte call abg shah'... aku ckp la 'kalau abg shah xde mcm mane?'. irma kate, 'kalau abg shah xde, kite call pakcik' aku bantai lg, 'kalau pakcik g lendir camno?' time tu irma ckp ape tahhh. takot gilakkkk!! ye ar. 1st time kot nk naik last2 nye train. nasib irma ada n bpk dia suruh tdo rumah aku. kalau aku sorg camno? dgn nnt da smpai bangi nak drive sorg nye lg. da la area keling, kang ada keling mabuk tahan aku, tak ke naye?? wuwuwu... tp kitorg smpai rmh dgn slmtnye... dlm pkl 1215 kot smpai rumah...

2012!

kiamat on 2012! omg! takotnyeee... hurmmm... cite tu boleh diterima pakai tp bkn semua ok!! tp takut jugak tgk bumi terbelah... hbs semua... tsunami and whatsoever... u guys better watch out for the movies for yourself and then u can make judgement logic ke x cite tu... but i don't like dorg punye ending... takkan la the end of the world pon still ada live jugak?? i knw there is, tp still in earth?? tak logic tu kan?? dah la time bumi hancur boleh cari jalan nak escape.. naik plane pegi negara lain... and guess what!! the cool part was the russian president, yuri kot name dia ckp ' sumtin like, 'car, start'... voice sensor ok nak start BENTLEY!! beyond coolness wasn't it?? gila lah. cuba kalau kete yg kita naik skrg ni ckp je ' kete, setat laaa... alalalala' hahahah.. kan cool tuh?? hahahha.. bongok pon ada gakk... pastu boleh pulak ada ark china made. high tech tuuuu!! tu pon satu hal gak. dahla ark tu bkn sebijik je.. ada la beberapa biji lg kannnn.... bsr dia tak payah cite arrr. a very gigantic one!!! fuuhhhhh!! indescribable!!! china always won for their tech... but ape2 pon, aku tak suke ending dia. gila tipu.. plus Allah je yg boleh tentukan bila hari kehancuran dunia ni.. manusia just boleh predict... atleast ada la skit pictures mcm mane kiamat nnt tp jgn percaya sgt ok.. myb kuasa Allah lg hebat... who knows rite??

gagak hitam's day out! 12/11/2009

oh yea!! the time is 216 am. yes! its very early in the morning! since i can't keep my eyes shut, so i wanted to tell that we're gonna watch the 2012! yea 2012 ppl!! org putih kata kiamat 20/12/2012!! how do they know?? i know they did some research or maybe still do some research but everything is in GOD's hand rite? we just boleh ikhtiar je.. and the rest of that we leave in GOD... can't wait to watch that with my gagak hitam-mates!! =)) see ya'll tomorrow ok!!

xoxo

i don't know....

okies. i have friends. a lot. i mean A LOT! but, what makes me confused is, i believe that someone is trying to 'have' what i have now. u know?? it is more like 'kalau dia boleh ada, asal aku tak boleh pulak kan?' yeaaa!! it's happening! for god sake, i dun even knw what the hell is ABC trying to do. i used to be a close friend to XYZ before. veryyyyy closeee one laaa i tell youuuu.... but because of we had some crisis, we nearly 'torn' apart.... i mean dah tak rapat sgt lahhh.... everything we do, we did it together... n even wherever we go, we went together... close like adik beradik!! yes i admit it because there were 'ppl' told us that we're look like adik beradik. i'm happy with that, but at that time lahhh... but now, we are just like baru knl.... 1st thing i noticed the ABC is trying to get close with XYZ... i don't mind with that but ABC really irritates me!! some how i feel like 'kau knape? kau jealous ke aku baik dgn dia?' sampai mcm tu skali ok i rasa!! omg!! ok the real situation is what ever ABC does, mst dia nk buat dgn XYZ... omg!! come on la ppl! do i look like i care!! i do care at 1st!! but, thinking that.. ah naaa... mls mention... nnt terasa pulak kannn.... omg!!!! benci gila!! u dun have to do that ok!! u igt ape?? baik sgt?? ohhh puhhhleaasssseeee laaaa. sgt hipokrit ok! benci siallllll!!! until now, ABC keeps irritates me... but i still love n hoping that we can get back together like before XYZ... i hate to say that i really miss the old u, XYZ!! sumpahhhhh!! but it seems like u don't even care how much i miss the old youuu.... ='( but ur always my BFF!

A

Feels like its already been ages since A gone from ‘our’ meeting place. Haha. Its funny rite? I know its not ‘our’ meeting place but there was the place where I 1^st and last met A. can anyone understand me how does it feel when u know the person that you like, love or have crush on will never be yours? Please tell me how does it feel?? It is hurt to accept the fact rite? When he was there, I am terribly happy. Hahaha. Yea I admit it. I’m happy when he was around. Eventhough you could only see him from far, but yet that made me feel great. But, now and forever he is gone. Doesn’t mean he is dead or get shot but he is ‘gone’. Disappear. Vanished from my eyes. If A came across my mind, I will open up the laptop. Yes! A is in my lappie or through facebook. Once he uploaded new pictures, I will go through those pictures and see how he is now. He looked great since he is gone. Pretty much happier than before I guess because he is surrounded by his F now. 24 7.maybe. I didn’t have the intention to take something that is not mine but is it a crime to have some sort of feelings towards A? me myself can’t describe what the hell am I feeling.is it love? No. I don’t think so. People always say that, if you fell in love, your heart beats faster than ever, you feel awkward when you see the person you like or you love or the person you have crushed on. I don’t feel that. I just want to see him. That is pretty enough for me.

Sometimes, when you are no longer able to control your emotions, you will burst into tears. Everyone feels that way. When you are down, what would you do? Just throw a fake smile? Pretending ‘I’m ok la friends. Don’t worry. Myb it is because of the period’. That is cliché. By now, I understand the word cliché. Hahaha. Aahhh. What am I writing this shit? No one will know how I feel. Even ur super duper BFFFF say ‘ I know how u feel. I’ve gone through this before. Just be patience. Everything will be fine. There are bugs out there.’ What bugs? For me, it is only a bug. That is A! wth!! It is all your fault! Why must I saw u in everywhere I go? Why must I saw ur yea-his-butt’s-heavy everywhere when u was there?? WHY?? Provide me the answers please. Could anyone? When my itunes shuffles and when it’s turn to always be my baby, it reminds me of u. u were singing happily rite? I remember that. Hahaha. So cute of u when u were on the pitch. If I had times or if there were any games that u played, i wanted to see u. even I don’t have the urge, but I tried and finally I got there where u were playing. Omg. I miss damn much that moments!

A!! I miss you so much. Hoping you will achieve what you strive for and lived happily ever after with F. =’(

holiday

starts of the holiday was not so good as my lil bro was admitted at kpj shah alam where it was known as SMC due to asthmatic and high fever. and he was in the VIP room ok! aku pon tak pernah. i was admitted too when i was in standard 4 kot.. ha yelaa... tu pon ward biasa je.. melampau sungguh.. mcm duduk hotel ye kau dik... everything is served.... pheewwww.... now, everyone yg nak visit or wat check up ke mesti kene tanya oleh nurse2 kat depan pintu tu 'ada demam, batuk atau selsema?' kalau takde, they will letak a small green sticker as a sign yg u takde sakit apa2. if ada, myb they provide u the mask or u can't enter the hosp. 1 day, aku nk gi la hosp. as usual. akan diinvestigate oleh nurse2 tuh. aku jwb jela. study ke kerja? study la kan obviously? kat mana? mst la uniten. kene tutup tak? kene. ada studs yg kne kuarantin? mst la ada. kalau tak takkan uniten saja nak tutup.betol x? pastu boleh plak dia bantai adik tak boleh msk. aku pon ckp laaa. arini je dah 10 kali saya keluar masuk sini. takkan takleh msk lg?? dia kata mmg tak boleh sbb baru dpt arahan. oooo. ada staff yg positive baru kau nak tanye la aku study je kerja lg. u aku tutup ke x?? kalau tak, kau tampal jela sticker hijau korg tu kannn?? benci betol.... tp finally i got in too! through ER! hahaha... mcm hape je.... takot gak at 1st kan? takkot tak lepas ke... kene tarik oleh guard ke... who knows? mcm kite duk tgk dlm tv laaa... hahaha... itulah alkisah nye duduk di hosp.... tp sakit pinggang la sbb tido ats kerusi... nasib for 1 nite stay only.. kalau tak bengkok tulang blkg... huhu...

escape from muadzam

where shall i start?? hurmm.. let me think... ok. past 2 weeks, uniten were announced to shut it's operation as most of the students were diagnosed with positive influenza A h1n1. it was in 4th aug. can u imagine, notice naik 330 and u have to leave the area abt 4 or u kene quarantine skali untill 11th aug?? gila ke apa?? so, after we all gathered and some briefing from kak fatin, everbody was rushed to pack their stuffs and i believe they just picked up what they seen rather what they needed to pack. same goes to me. sampai lupa bwk blk charger laptop ok!! shoot gila! mcm mana nak hidup charger laptop takde?? batery pon almost meninggal... heshhh.. luckily mama's charger same as mine... thinking of buying the new one but it cost too expensive for me... rm150!! to be used for how many days only.... ye laaa... cuti bukan lama mana pon nak beli mhl2... i'd rather spend my money on others like shirtsss or pantsss or not just a pair of shoes ( yg mmg tak sempat nak beli even a pair ) huhu.... i think i'm out of topic already... huhu... ok, after get lost from harmoni gate, pegi isi minyak kat petronas bdr n withdraw some cash kat cimb. then kitorg jumpa kat petronas highway. guess what?? there were so many uniten studs kat sana. mcm pengumuman tergempar raya. like it was esok raya hari ni baru dpt taw. sume studs 'gather' kat petronas. isi minyak, beli air,makanan, tunggu member nak convoy, pam tayar... yg 'best gila' dpt jumpa artis!! AIMAN!! hahaha... siot je... lepas borak2 sat, salam2 ajang yg nak balik BP, we all pon start our journey.... yg kononnya convoy time tu were WSB, WDB, AFY and AGV where shila's, iena's, lin's and sherry's... konon je gerak sama2... last sume mcm hantu bwk kete... huhu.. korg mmg... nak mati cepat kah?? aku taknak... huuuu... with no stop, unless kat mcd senawang. when we reached mcd, tak ramai sgt org.... lepas sume da amik seat nk mkn, maka berbiji2 kete uniten studs pon sampai. it was like mcd tu uniten yg punye. yelaaa.. almost full with uniten studs... and sgt best ok time tu sbb parents fara bella yg open table for us.... thanks uncle faudzi! bila boleh lg?? hahah... joking... after mkn spicy chicken mcdeluxe yg superb gila tuh, we all drive-thru pulak beli ice-cream.. yelaa... kat muadzam mana ada mcd so skali beli in bunch la kannn... hahahha... dah mkn tu kitorg jln laa sampai lepas tol senawang sbb nak kutip si ribhan syafini pulak... dia nak naik dgn shila sampai subang... mcm jejak kasih tepi jalan pon ye... sempat lg amik gmbr peluk cium sume... biasa la kitorg... mana taw malu... kan suka bikin kontoversial... hahaha.... naik je highway sume dah tak igt hidup mati... selagi meter tak habis, pedal minyak ditekan... alhamdulillah kami semua sampai dgn selamatnya....

i hate

i hate people when:

they love making up stories

being such a good backstabber

pretending that he/she is good in everything

always says that 'aku kan comel/hot/cantik...biasala' or in simpler word budget!

admitting something that not belong to them

kacau2 aku even dia taw aku tak suka! mmg mintak kaki sungguh!!!!!!

judging people eventhough they don't even know u

paling i benci is... YOU!!!

faculties of the mind

hello! you guys should listen to this song, faculties of the mind by butterfingers. its awesome yaww!

it's gonna be a fifty-fifty treatment

you'd be in and never outdoor

you'd be king long lost forgotten

it's gonna take a while i once remembered

there were lies i used to tell her

hidden secrets make it rotten

on and on the days go on

and on and on for what i made wrong

fall this time the times are useless

have you been through wonderful minds ?

shout out loud the ants are coming

there's a thought that ever was

once again and not forever

all the things you do you would do know

all the things you said you would say now

all the dreams come true in the mainland

have you been through wonderful minds ?

....

since i don't have any idea how to answer those tax ques, better i write something better rite? haha. currently i'm listening to gone by n'sync. yes GONE! whose gone?? eveybody is gone! heee. frankly, i miss him. yes i do. i knw he is happy with his pebbles. u knw who am i referring to rite? no need to mention. but if i do, i'm scared myb his acquaitances, i said MAYBE read this post. so better i keep it silence. ok stop writing abt him. no use.

actually, i am still confuse abt myself. particularly, what am i doing rite now? am i taking the right track or myb i'm in still my dream that i knw it will never come true? shall i proceed or shall i quit? i just don't know. sometimes it feels like i am not being myself. i am pretending. it is not that i am being a liar or a backstabber, but like i said, i'm confused. i am the new hanis. slowly transform from being a not-so-conservative-girl to a ..... what? what the hell the dots suppose to mean? *sigh*

i am an ordinary girl trying to be extraordinary even i knw it will never happen. so.... nahhh. i dnt knw what am i thinking.

holy shit!

can anybody provide me some solutions pls!! i don't have any idea what to answer the tax tutorial questions! during lecture, the topic covered for that day sounds easy to understand. but once u do the questions, everything will mess up. seems like u didn't learn anything. eventhough, my lecturer's grammar is pretty mixed up, ok i would say it broken english ( no wondering, i'd givens u, tens days ) yea hell i know it sounds damn stupid as like she never learn about eng but has a master and being a not-so-good-grammar lecturer, i don't know how to answer those i-didn't-find-that-those-ques-are-that-hard, but it is just confusing and tricky.

what a hectic schedule!

as for today, issb class ended abt 0920. thank god its early. hahaha. ustaz anuar, i luv u laa! <3.

ok. i want to tell that, if u read this post, jgn ajak i dating on monday because i am too tired for that! can u imagine, CF class starts at 8-10 am continue with Accounts class at 11am-1 pm then continue with microeconomics at 2-4pm and the last class of the day, malaysian taxation tutorial class at 5-7pm. plus with the tutorials that will be checked by mdm fatimah hanim and mdm suzaida. super exhausting ok! on tuesday pon sama jugak. 3 classes a day. heshhhh. nasib tak kahwin n ada anak yg berderet2. kalau tak, mesti kene amik anak dari skolah incase dah mmg no bus skolah provided. lepas tu hntr anak pergi sekolah agama plak. then pergi kerja blk. ptg blk amik anak pastu kene masak tuk husband. pastu kene buat housechores lagi! aduhhhh! luckily i am still young and single!

seriously, this semester, i must work extra hard sbb the subjects are tougher. kalau main2 lagi, mati laaa.

mcm-mcm yg terjadi.....

1st week

tanggal 5 july ( kalau tak silap ), maka berangkatlah semua student uniten menuju ke alam yang benar iaitu pulang ke kampus. kerana semester baru akan bermula. aku tahu. semua berat hati nak balik kan? aku pun sama. sbb pe? sebab sedih nak tgl kan family, sedih nak tgl kan bf yg mana tah2 kalau kita jauh dari kita dia pon curang ke kan, hoho.. pastu sedih nak tgl kan internet yg laju mcm evo... sedih nak tgl kan segala2 nya. tapi apakan daya. perjuangan harus diteruskan. dgn azam yg baru tuk score 4 rata ( 4 flat lahh ), so, berangkatlah semua org. kali ni, family aku yg hntr aku blk. sbb barang aku byk. kalau nak sumbat sume dlm kete shila, mmg harapannn laaa. kalau brg dia pon sikit takpe, ni aku dgn mini bar aku tuh nak letak kat mana pulak? ikat ats bumbung? hahaha....

perjalanan ke muadzam diteruskan. tapi time kat bukit putus tu jam la pulakkkk! tekanang! almost 45 minutes gak laa kat ats tuh. nasib kete auto, kalau manual mampos nak tukar gear and tekan clutch sume. tp, yg buat darah menyirap. bkn nye ada accident ape pon. takde ape yg berlaku sebenarnya. takkan la sume driver suke bwk kete lembap? ke dorg apply 'biar lambataslkan selamat?' aku da rasa tak selamat dah duk dlm kete tu. aku rasa kalau turun jalan kaki dah bleh potong kete yg plg lembap skali kat dpn tuh. hesshhhh. menyirap sial!

sampai kat kuala pilah kot, area yg org jual buah naga tu, my mum teringin nak beli buah naga la pulak. so kitorg pon stop la kejap kat kedai makcik ni. yg jaga kedai tu cucu dia. mula2 aku taknak turun sbb igt nak beli je. tp last2 bpk aku suruh turun sbb nak mkn buah durian. tp buah durian dia tak berapa sdp sbb isi dia nipis je. time tgh mkn tu, aku nmpk kete fara lalu. ada org bubye aku tp aku tak sure sape. 1 kete bdk uniten aku nmpk. pastu lalu lg kete myvi merah wqh 9400 gak. tu pon kete bdk uniten jugak. tak lama lepas tu, lalu nmpk pulak naza ria. aku rasa mcm kenal kete tu. kete yun. haha. semangat membuak2 nak blk muadzam sbb dah lama tak jumpa member2 syaiton nirrajim. hahahah...

lepas puas mkn buah, aku tak mkn sgt sbb takde selera. sbb pe? sbb mcm tak sbr nak blk muadzam! hahahahha.... perjalanan diteruskan. alhamdulillah takde pape yg berlaku. sampai je muadzam terus gi wisma byr duit rumah. lepas check in kat harmoni jumpe member jap. pastu nak gi mkn. aku lupa crk bukak ke tutup hari ahd hari tu. so aku bwk jela family aku lalu kat crk. tutup la pulak. pe la org muadzam ni. suka sgt tutup kedai. tak reti buat duit langsung. takkan tak taw students dah blk. bukak jela kedai tuh. heh. mara pulakkk. hahhaha.. pastu mak aku kata gi jela segamat. aku pon redho jela even aku dah lapa gila. otw to segamat aircond plak buat hal. org melayu buat kerja mmg sambil lewa. org melayu tak reti buat kerja. bila kutuk, taw pon marah. tp cara kerja, tak produktif langsung. mcm konsep, asal siap sudeyyy. fundek laaa!!

dah sampai segamat, cari la pulak kedai mkn. kitorg mkn dekat area dataran segamat tuh. depan jakel. aku tak fikir ape dah. asl dpt mkn cukup. lapa gila kot. tp si kedai jakel pulak bukak lagu kuat2 mcm harammmm. kalau lagu sedap takpe dowh. ni lagu 'aduh,aduh, aduh sakitnya.. jiwa ini.. meronta dlm kepalsuan...' bak dtg arrrr! pastu bukak kuat2 laktu. skali lagi.. ORG MELAYU mmg begitu. kalau ditegur, marah..... so, aku pon apply la konsep, REDHO JE... =)

dah puas mkn, pe lagi? balik laaa! hahhaha.. otw ke muadzam plak, ramai la plak cina jual durian. so, stop la lg mkn durian. tp kali ni punye duriam mmg superb! terbaekkk wokkkkk! hahahhaha... berbiji2 la jugak aku mkn. panas bdn tu blkg kira. hahhaha... kan durian segamat sdp. so bila lagi kannnn?? kami sekeluarga pon mkn la durian dgn jayanya dan meneruskan perjalanan ke muadzam...

ok stop jap. aku malas nak type lagi. nnt sambung.

1st time.....

hello people! i'm writing a blog. ok. that would be my new interest kot. hahaha. actualy sometimes i feel like i want to write but just i don't have the urge to do so. plus, everytime i want to perah otak what i'm gonna write, mst ckp, 'pe aku nak tulis ha??'. if not, mst byk je idea nak tulis. heshh. so?? ssupp ppl? am hanis. ok, my friends in uniten called me chemark. truth to be told, i HATE to be called chemark! sounds kimak! hoho. but, no one knew me with hanis. not no one, most of my friends called me chemark. hehh. lantak korg lahhh.

(by this time, thinking of what to type next.huhu)